Paved with good intentions

It had been my intention to have a grip of new material for you after the tour ended. There is so much I want to write about. And getting to speak with a few of you on tour really gave me the courage and confidence to dive head first into so many of the projects I’ve been considering but haven’t gone ahead and pulled the trigger on.

So what happened? Life, as it so often does, got in the way. First there was all the work to prepare Rudius Media to go on hiatus. And helping where I could with author migrations. Then there was getting Thrill Seekers running.

And there’s been my own reluctance to write. This is a pretty big transition for me. I’m moving out of Los Angeles, I’m deciding what I want to be when I grow up. And it’s hard to bring any perspective to these events as they’re unfolding. I’m really only any good in hindsight.

So I’ve been unwinding the IT infrastructure around here and I’ve been using that as an excuse to stay lazy and complacent. To not write, to procrastinate.

I’m a very private person and when I get stressed or when I’m dealing with something, I tend to withdraw. To hide. And it’s a shame because as much as I love this space where I get to write, it’s one of the first casualties when I’m trying to sort my own head out.

The bad news is that you’re going to have to endure a couple more weeks of radio silence. I leave tonight (in about 25 minutes actually) for 10 days vacation out of the country. I’m not going to say where but I’ll write about it when I’m back (and I’ll have photos!) and it’ll make sense why I didn’t post the destination beforehand.

The good news is that I’m once again feeling that need to write. I’ve got a few short stories already started and I’ve got a list of about a thousand things I want to write about my life and the tour and about working for Rudius. I know some of you have written to me with questions about Rudius, all I can ask is that you’re patient and I’ll answer what I can eventually. I put a lot of myself into Rudius over the last few years and this last month hasn’t been easy.

In the meantime, thanks for reading. Thank you for your comments and thanks for your emails even if I don’t always get back to you. I do appreciate that you find the time to check in every day. And I promise I’ll get better about updating.